almost four months.
almost FOUR MONTHS i had someone chasing after me. they dealt with my MANY mess ups, all my faults, all my flaws. i was even chasing after someone else at one point and they were still persistent on showing me what i meant to them. i was told they wanted to marry me, that they had never been so in love with someone in their life. talked about me to everyone. and had no shame in loving me whatsoever. i screwed up a lot this past summer and i hurt this person more than i could've ever imagined. i never wanted to. you never really WANT to hurt someone. anyway, they stuck by me all those times i did shitty horrible things. that's love, isn't it?
you'd think.
one too many times i hurt them, they get to turn around and hurt me right back. so many times. its like my feelings dont even matter anymore. once i fell in love, it does not matter. nothing i do matters. i lost my friends, i pushed my family away. all because it meant more time with mls and thats all i wanted. ever. and then i just end up getting completely crushed. thats how i feel. crushed. i was lied to and basically emotionally abused. the worst part? no one cares.
